Where to Next?
On Thursday last week, I sat down to my final interviews for Thrive With Less with Matt and Josh. It astounds me the leaps and bounds we have all grown together, to the point where I can look them straight in the eyes and open up about how I am actually feeling. As someone who rarely talks about her emotions, to stare into the eyes of someone else— someone who has the ability to judge and inflict pain— and speak honestly is truly a realization of the effect that this journey has had on me.
The true moment of epiphany came when I was out with my mother shopping this weekend. I feel this is where my shopping binges have derived from. My mother is a wonderful woman, and she will stop at nothing to put my mind at ease and see me smile— so sometimes this involves spending money that doesn’t need to be spent. I can remember one instance when I was in high school and aggravated with some miniscule irritation that seemed so severe (as high school issues often do) that she bought me three new dresses at one store— dresses I only wore one time. I love my mother, and I do not know how I could survive without her, but I think it is finally time to give up on the shopping addict lifestyle. We were out this weekend, and I have a profound love for outrageous lipsticks— so of course my head was buried in a hot pink sales rack. My beautiful mother walked up and offered to purchase two shades I had in my hand. For a moment, I actually contemplated letting her do it. Then I looked up laughing and actually said, “But do I need this?”
I left the store without any bags in my hand.
I am very sad to see our class coming to an end, though our documentary wrapping up in this intricate package with a big impact, but I am looking forward to this ending as simply a beginning. I can confidently say that I will attempt to pursue a more minimal lifestyle as I transcend from Mo Hnatiuk, MSU college student, to Mo Hnatiuk, actual human being — giving up my identity as a consumer, buying more locally, actively taking part in my community, and connecting.. really connecting.. with the world around me.
I have been lucky enough to involve myself with a passionate group of individuals who I will now consider to be life-long friends. How wonderful to have been able to share in such an experience as a senior at Michigan State University. This has been such a stepping off point leading me into the next stage of my life.